A few weeks ago I wrote an article about what to do when things start falling apart. Things were going haywire then, not just for me, but for many of you, too. It was a widespread thing.
Apparently, it’s still going on.
The last month here has been pretty much hellish. First my son got sick. Fever of 103, and then the cough started. About five days into it, my little one got it, too. They said it was a viral infection that was going around, that it was lasting about ten days, and that there was nothing to do but get plenty of rest and lots of fluids, and keep them on the Tylenol to keep the fever down.
So that’s what I did.
But it went on and on. When I took them back to the doctor, we found out that they had both developed ear infections, and that my son also now had bronchitis. Both were put on antibiotics, and a few days later, they finally were on the mend.
Then I got sick for a few days, but I got better.
Then I got sick again, and I got flattened; first the fever, and then the cough that wouldn’t stop. But I assumed it was the same ten-day virus the kids had.
Seriously, Universe? Enough is enough!
Yesterday, after 11 days of fever and coughing so hard it frequently made me throw up, I called the doctor. She had me come in and see her, and then promptly sent me off for chest xrays and bloodwork.
And it was discovered that I have pneumonia.
So they gave me a prescription for antibiotics; a type that I had taken previously with no problems.
But I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics after the first dose last night.
When I called the pharmacist I was told to absolutely not take another dose until I had spoken with my doctor – apparently the reaction I had, coming within a mere three hours of taking one dose, is a bad sign. Further exposure could trigger an anaphylactic response.
So there’s yet another antibiotic that I am unable to take anymore.
And of course the reaction happened in the evening, after hours. I left a message for the doctor. They called me back promptly this morning, but the doctor wasn’t in the office today. They said they would leave her an urgent message.
About noon I was told that a new prescription would be called into the pharmacy for me. It wasn’t ready for pick up until two, though.
I’m supposed to take the first dose of this new stuff tonight. Here’s hoping it goes well.
I don’t have the energy or the inclination at the moment to figure out what the hell has gone wrong with my alignment to bring this into my reality. More importantly, I really don’t care what the energetic cause of this happens to be.
I don’t need to know right now.
What I do need to do is start from where I am right now and to focus myself on healing; on shifting my energy to what I want it to be, rather than on worrying about what might have caused it, or worrying about what the hell else can possibly go wrong.
Focus on what you want
If you’re in a bad situation, it doesn’t always matter what happened to create that situation – you don’t need to spend a lot of time on figuring it out and doing a whole lot of deep soul-searching for energetic alignment problems. If a quick look within doesn’t turn anything up, sometimes it’s best to put it out of your mind and stop worrying about it. Your current situation is based on the past, but your future situation is based on the present.
This means that what you align yourself with RIGHT NOW is setting the foundation for tomorrow’s experiences. So just work with that. If you’re dealing with a situation that has you feeling like the Universe hates you and you’re hanging on by a thread in basic survival mode, then just get through it any way you can, and don’t worry about “why” it’s happening. You can do that later, if you want.
The important thing right now is to survive the current situation, and find a way to focus yourself on what you want the future to be.
Dear blog readers: Please note that blog posts are likely to be sporadic until I’m over this pneumonia thing. It’s taking an awful lot out of me at the moment, and I don’t have a whole lot of energy left for writing at present. Things will get back to normal around here at some point, but I’m not sure when that will be just yet, so thank you all for your continuing patience.